12/31/2024
if i'm real, this year low-key kinda sucked.
when it didn't just straight up suck, it was so nothing. i mean i didn't do anything that i thought was meaningful— just kind of lazed around. which i guess isn't necessarily bad but it didn't make me feel very good, you know?
i want to change next year. i want to do things, more things, even if i'm scared or i fail or it succeeds, i want to stop being so scared to do things.
i want to be a game developer. i want to be a youtuber. i want to be a better artist. i want to have a etsy shop. i want to be proud of myself.
i did things to try to start that this year, i did a game jam, i had a successful youtube short, i did more art studies, i made a bunch of stickers. i'm not going to discredit what i did achieve, but i feel like i didn't try that much.
i look back at what i did this year, and as "proud" as i am now, i know i can do better. that i have it in myself to do things that i can look back at and smile.
not counting the things that happened this year ofc. i moved, he left, the 2024 election results, just everything. i'm happy i survived, but i would prefer if 2025 wasn't as horrible!
i want to be happier, for myself. i want to be a better person. i want to be someone my brother can look up to. i want to be a good example.
i want to be proud.
that's my new year's resolution, i guess.
i hope if you're reading this, you're proud of yourself. if you aren't, there's always time to improve. i believe in you.
i love you :)
